Post by Meadow on Mar 4, 2007 4:56:53 GMT
(( Following is a voice-recorded diary of Meadows ( for those that knows her voice. ) The date is the same as her attack. Apparently it have been intercepted by the FA systems somehow ))
Ahem.. right ...
Dear diary. Normally this isnt the thing i do, because i like to keep personal things to myself.
Plus i dont have any notebooks.. but i figured this would be just as good.
I belive theres a limited amount of fury and sorrow a person can hold, which is why i have to release some of it upon you.
It has been .. i dont know how long since he died. And its impossible for me to move on. The others dont get it, but i really dont care. They havent been through what i was through with him. Even that time when everyone was against us and accusing him of poisoning my mind.. but they were wrong. However, we could not prove it to them. I even took him to see my parents. I must admit that my dad was not very friendly at first. But they gave us their blessing. Meph was being such a gentleman .. offering my mother to help cleaning the dishes.
Fenx told me later that they actually liked him. I have not yet told them of his death, since i hate bringing such news.
And well .. at some point it all got too much, i tried killing myself. Cloe tried stopping me. And i guess that although i slipped out of her grip, she did not fail, cause im still alive.
When i came back alot of things had changed. I remember telling Richard that he should stay together with Kit and try to work things out. And now he ... have tons of women.
Alot of people say that they understand what its like to lose someone they love. Their examples have not been the same.
Cloe suspecting Iris to have an affair. Even if she did, she would still be alive and there would still be a way to work out things.
And come on .. the times i spend together with her.
Richard.. well .. i thought of him as one of my best friends but .. he is so busy right now. Women trouble. But then again .. they are all alive and as long as people can communicate, there will always be a solution.
Veskit. I have lived with him for a long time now and i like him alot. Like a brother .. dont take this the wrong way. He have been guiding me, protecting me and trying to cheer me up. And well .. i didnt mind babysitting Tommy at all. Meph would have been a good father, i could see that when he was babysitting Tommy.
And as for Alita .. one of the newest members. A part of me hates her, even though i know its wrong. But .. i dont think i could hurt her even if i had to. Putting the blame on someone else for a change feels better. The burden on my shoulders are getting heavier.
*Transmission ends*
(( The recording is available to anyone who has access to the FA-network ))
Ahem.. right ...
Dear diary. Normally this isnt the thing i do, because i like to keep personal things to myself.
Plus i dont have any notebooks.. but i figured this would be just as good.
I belive theres a limited amount of fury and sorrow a person can hold, which is why i have to release some of it upon you.
It has been .. i dont know how long since he died. And its impossible for me to move on. The others dont get it, but i really dont care. They havent been through what i was through with him. Even that time when everyone was against us and accusing him of poisoning my mind.. but they were wrong. However, we could not prove it to them. I even took him to see my parents. I must admit that my dad was not very friendly at first. But they gave us their blessing. Meph was being such a gentleman .. offering my mother to help cleaning the dishes.
Fenx told me later that they actually liked him. I have not yet told them of his death, since i hate bringing such news.
And well .. at some point it all got too much, i tried killing myself. Cloe tried stopping me. And i guess that although i slipped out of her grip, she did not fail, cause im still alive.
When i came back alot of things had changed. I remember telling Richard that he should stay together with Kit and try to work things out. And now he ... have tons of women.
Alot of people say that they understand what its like to lose someone they love. Their examples have not been the same.
Cloe suspecting Iris to have an affair. Even if she did, she would still be alive and there would still be a way to work out things.
And come on .. the times i spend together with her.
Richard.. well .. i thought of him as one of my best friends but .. he is so busy right now. Women trouble. But then again .. they are all alive and as long as people can communicate, there will always be a solution.
Veskit. I have lived with him for a long time now and i like him alot. Like a brother .. dont take this the wrong way. He have been guiding me, protecting me and trying to cheer me up. And well .. i didnt mind babysitting Tommy at all. Meph would have been a good father, i could see that when he was babysitting Tommy.
And as for Alita .. one of the newest members. A part of me hates her, even though i know its wrong. But .. i dont think i could hurt her even if i had to. Putting the blame on someone else for a change feels better. The burden on my shoulders are getting heavier.
*Transmission ends*
(( The recording is available to anyone who has access to the FA-network ))